I need God like crazy right now! I really almost had a baby panic attack today. ("Baby" meaning small... not Cooper, lol) I'm just flooding with awful things right now. Philip's ridiculous work schedule which continues to be a struggle, his school load is becoming more intense also. It's not like I'm doing these things... but when he is stressed and gone all the time, it takes a toll on me too. The Infinity when ka-poot today too. Now we're down to one car again. The ONE toilet in our house is clogged and not functioning (no, not thanks to a TT). I forgot at the last minute today I was supposed to be in Norman tonight, so I was scrambling trying to find someone to watch Cooper. And, I've been at my grandpa's all day.... which in a of itself is mentally (and somewhat physically) exhausting.

As I was driving to Norman tonight, I was praying for God to help me. I know I can't do this without You, God. The stress of life is just too much. I need You to help me and guide me. I asked Him to encourage me with music on my drive. I turned on my iPod and hit "shuffle." The first song it chose was "Burn for You" by TobyMac. I was listening to the words and I realized.... I need to burn for You! You lift me up! It's so hard to not look within ourselves when we're struggling. I was really humbled tonight God... I can't do life without You! Thank you!

I feel so much more comforted and at peace now.